Second-in-Charge insistent that he is in a fit state to work at least part time. After flaming row about it on Friday afternoon, do not feel up to arguing. Will see how he gets on. Meanwhile, a County Court summons lands on my doormat in relation to an accident one of our van drivers had earlier in the year. The fun just keeps on coming! See aforesaid van driver who claims accident wasn’t his fault and causes mild scene over his personal problems when told that, under circumstances, he may not continue to use van for personal use. I ring insurance company to be told that they have already admitted liability on our behalf. As usual, am being messed around and lied to. Somehow made to feel somehow guilty and useless as staff try and offload their responsibilities onto me. Son, who is temping, chooses today to ask favours about his pay, which irritates me royally. Absolutely no reason why he should have special privileges, nor pressure me as a boss, just because of who he is. Then feel foul for snapping at him. Meanwhile, Second-in-Charge manages to hone in – with unerring accuracy – on all the staff who clearly didn’t bother to work last week because he was not here (a couple of them both senior and long serving). All progress made over past ten days promptly flies out window and dissolve in tears. Feel doubly awful that it is Second-in-Charge who has problems and yet it is me who is selfish enough to cry. Damn it!
